rarely anyone writes in this things anymore but hey all the better less people will see! yay anyways, life is like shit so nothing new there, i went back to miltown, it was fun but  you know the drill.  not gonna lie, i do let the bitches get to me sometimees but it happenin cuz like i said, touch wodd i have amazing friends this time and they got mah back as i got theirs and i have them with me so nothing else matters duh.  lol angst lol haha!!! gotta love the drama!

well i must admit, i miss the family time so i am working on rectifying that for the time being until i get back in to college i cant wait! i miss my room but i am soo going to rearrange! i dont care what she says.

HEY MR STALKER!!!   yeS  I am writing in my xanga  again!  lol


anywaysssssss

 ok so I have start UD, well been awhile.

I am lvoing it here though I am thinking about transferring to another school possible bigger.  I like the whole small school scene but I am starting to get appealed by the effect of a larger school, fun fun.  mmmm I shall think about this!

oh wow it really has been a long time,

To say that the last month or so have been uneventful would be a lie for it is the opposite.  Shocking how somethings can happen and turn your whole life around. 

I always thought the five of us would always be friends.  now i realize how naive i was to even think that.  I mean honestly things happen, just as they had.  But in a way I must say, I realized somethings.  You can tell a lot about the true characterization of a person by the way they act in a difficult time and after. 

I have finally come to realize that maybe she never really wanted to be my friend in the first place and the only reason why we got as close as we did was because she had no one else at the time.  or maybe oh forget it i dont know. 

I mean if she truly wanted to be my friend, she wouldnt have given up so easily.  she wouldnt have resigned.  and things wouldnt be so bloody awkward between us.  I reall am tired about it.  well ou know what, I am finally moving on.  Yes I was always think of her as a Sister that I lost but no mjore sorrow or grief she didnt want it fine, her choice, she will be the one missing out.  I will be too but maybe it wont hurt as bad anymore. 


Bye Bye Drama!  lol
 

on to happier things,
O MY GOD!! like whoaaaa
 so I am doing Mosaic senior camp this year and lke it is soo much fun i cant wait until next week for camp to begin!  wooo whooo


So I am finally getting to know another friend.  At first I had this feeling like she didnt lke me but know I have gotten so close to her its so cool. but ever since the "thing" I have decided not to get close to anyone like i did with her, I refuse to let someone hurt me as much as she did.  But i wont close myself off to anone, no one deserves that either.....